Greetings Creative Ones!
It’s OK the be scared. It’s OK not to know. And I know it is uncomfortable. (I know it well!) And this is where we meet ourselves when there is nothing to cling to. This is the point of wild aliveness that we all crave and often run from…
Your ego will throw a tantrum. Your critic a hissy, and just do it anyway, there IS light on the other side. In our crazy alpha left-brain dominated culture, obsessed with do-do and achieve achieve achieve it is sometimes hard to get beyond the addiction to having it all figured out, looking ‘good’ and just put a happy FACEbook on it! And this is the trap. The cage. The lie.
In so many ways this is what the intuitive painting process teaches us… how to let go, be in the unknown, trust the process, be comfortable in the chaos and run free in the mystery of it all. This is secretly what every human soul craves. To traverse these waters. To tap into the wildness of the creative animal that runs through our veins dying to be set free.
Yet most of us in our modern day life set out down misguided paths looking to external things which we hope will satiate our hunger only to perpetuate more pain and disillusionment. Until we find our way back home.
5 Simple Steps to Get in the Flow.
1) Let go.
2) Release resistance to what is (what is showing up in your life, in this present moment)
3) Just be with it. LOVE it. Thank it.
5) Trust that it has a gift for you. (and this too shall pass)
Letting the Creative Spirit do the work… I have found is paramount. Surprising and delighting along the way. Like a river running through our veins it wakes us up. Full of paradox and messiness …and bringing all our shit up to the surface. Everything that is not authentically, truthfully…YOU. Everything that you have been told that is you, that is false. Shared out of fear. Out of generations of control, manipulation of disconnection. Out of PAIN. Out of innocence. Every nook and cranny where you adapted to someone else’s expectation of you, someone else’s wound, in order to receive love. To feel accepted. To feel seen, approved of and included. Yeah that part. Let that go. Let it wash off your shoulders like water off a ducks back. You are free now.
When we connect to our Creative flow is often so freeing and frightening that we don’t know what to do with all that energy. It is easy, it takes over us. All that life force pulsating through our veins, in truth… is where we feel breathlessly alive! It is this place where I find we are afraid of our true potential. Of being seen. Of seeing ourselves in all of our light. Of letting go into the unknown. Who would I be with out being in control?
It kinda reminds me of being held in a headstand in yoga. You know that place–those of you that are yogis–where your feet and legs are almost being lifted from your hip sockets by the higher realms. For me, it is as if the angels are lifting me up by my feet and it is an invisible force of ease, and grace where my body just relaxes into nothingness …as if to almost fly. And it is also terribly frightening to just let go. To trust that I will be held, that this invisible force, which is beyond my control will keep lifting me higher and keep me steady if I just stay connected to how I feel and trust it.
So when you feel afraid or scared, in your life, your business, or on the canvas or the page– don’t give up or abandon your dream (your heart), know that this is the next step. Its OK not to know. Go into the space of the great unknown. Here in lies the lawn of your initiation. What you will find will be yourself. What you discover will be the greatest gift you have ever known.
with great love on the grand adventure that is you!